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aggravated I hurt all day, but my Spirits stayed up until dark hit
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This Full Moon HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hurt inside and out. My body physically hurts....my "heart" hurts....my insides hurt and feel like they are burning....my spine is shedding....I feel "heavy"...and someone inside me wants to be angry and the darker it gets tonight, the darker She gets as well.
I hurt all day, but my Spirits stayed up until dark hit <actually had a pretty good, upbeat day!!>....the later it got...the darker *I* got. I worked out in my flower garden tonight to try and stay grounded...pulled weeds, laid more stones and shells and got it looking pretty nice again..the weeding needed done bad. I had a hissy fit when I found out that one of my faeries wings had been broke off from someone stepping in the flower garden. It really pissed me off!!! It is MY flower garden, the first one I have ever in my life cared about or spent so much time working in and I would appreciate it being respected!!
Well...it didn't help that earlier I have found that the damn hell hound had gotten my angel bear and chewed on it either!!! <he has only destroyed 4 pair of my flip flops now and chews only what seems to be MY belongings...and the angel bear REALLY pissed me off!!!!> So by the time it got to the poor faerie with broken wings...it was the attitude of "well if it's mine it is going to get broken anyway!!". Butch did do a good thing by pointing out that the Full Moon was working at me......I just kept digging in the dirt and trying to keep my mouth shut...especially with Kali in the house. I did have a minor outburst and spewing...but very minor compared to what it could've been, I caught myself and went to my room to remove myself from doing any further damage...I HATE feeling that way!!!! And...I'm about to go and take a bath before I lay down for sleep tonight...i need to get this itchy crappy feeling that is under my skin, out of me...I can't stand it....the burning under my skin...the aches...the heaviness.....it sucks!!!
I need to soak in the tub and spend time with my Mantra's....I need to release this yucky stuff inside of me and purge some of this anger that is coming from somewhere.....who's so damn angry, edgey and irritable?????
Anyway...just had to get some of this out.....and am off to find some peace of mind in my bath tub...then hopefully some sleep and tomorrow will be a new day. <ya know the energy here is disturbed when the bird is even angry and cussing everything out!!!>
<sighs>
OMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Om Mani Padme Hum..............
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti........
Goddess Please Grant me a Peaceful night sleep........and ease this pain that is residing inside of me....
~*~Peace & Moonlit Blessings~*~
I hurt all day, but my Spirits stayed up until dark hit <actually had a pretty good, upbeat day!!>....the later it got...the darker *I* got. I worked out in my flower garden tonight to try and stay grounded...pulled weeds, laid more stones and shells and got it looking pretty nice again..the weeding needed done bad. I had a hissy fit when I found out that one of my faeries wings had been broke off from someone stepping in the flower garden. It really pissed me off!!! It is MY flower garden, the first one I have ever in my life cared about or spent so much time working in and I would appreciate it being respected!!
Well...it didn't help that earlier I have found that the damn hell hound had gotten my angel bear and chewed on it either!!! <he has only destroyed 4 pair of my flip flops now and chews only what seems to be MY belongings...and the angel bear REALLY pissed me off!!!!> So by the time it got to the poor faerie with broken wings...it was the attitude of "well if it's mine it is going to get broken anyway!!". Butch did do a good thing by pointing out that the Full Moon was working at me......I just kept digging in the dirt and trying to keep my mouth shut...especially with Kali in the house. I did have a minor outburst and spewing...but very minor compared to what it could've been, I caught myself and went to my room to remove myself from doing any further damage...I HATE feeling that way!!!! And...I'm about to go and take a bath before I lay down for sleep tonight...i need to get this itchy crappy feeling that is under my skin, out of me...I can't stand it....the burning under my skin...the aches...the heaviness.....it sucks!!!
I need to soak in the tub and spend time with my Mantra's....I need to release this yucky stuff inside of me and purge some of this anger that is coming from somewhere.....who's so damn angry, edgey and irritable?????
Anyway...just had to get some of this out.....and am off to find some peace of mind in my bath tub...then hopefully some sleep and tomorrow will be a new day. <ya know the energy here is disturbed when the bird is even angry and cussing everything out!!!>
<sighs>
OMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Om Mani Padme Hum..............
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti........
Goddess Please Grant me a Peaceful night sleep........and ease this pain that is residing inside of me....
~*~Peace & Moonlit Blessings~*~
